Things have a way of working themselves out. It may take a long long time but they do.
My way of thinking is going through a metamorphosis. All my life, my primary motivation in life has been to "be somebody." I've had many people tell me that I am somebody but I just never got it. Somehow someway the light has finally turned on. I think somewhere in the back of my mind I thought if I ever became "somebody" I wouldn't have any more problems. I thought with enough money and power, problems could be easily solved. Then I realized that even the richest most powerful people in the world have more problems than they can say grace over. Life on this side of eternity comes with problems. The real key to happiness I think is to realize that we will always have problems, that all problems have solutions, that once one problem is solved, another will arise, and finally some problems lead to opportunities. What this means is that I am not going to be quite so driven to make it to the top as I was in the past. Make no mistake, I am still ambitious, however, the my goal is no longer "to be somebody" rather it is to be the best person I can be.
My wife told me to go out and get myself a dress last night. This after she shaved my chest bare. My legs are still cover with hair but we are definitely headed in the right direction. One of two things is going to happen. She is either going to take me all the way on my journey to femininity or she is going to take me to a certain point and then stop. Either way, I am determined to go all the way. As I set here it I think that my goal is to have SRS and become a woman before I am 55. My daughter turns 18 in 6 years when I will be 50. If I start the process then, I will be female by 55. That's the goal for now. I would very much like to move the timetable up, but for right now 55 is the goal. I have an interview with a major corporation on Thursday that has covered SRS for their employees in the past. If I get this job, this would definitely be a step in the right direction.
I hope to update this blog more often. I want to continue to write from a positive point of view. Some of my posts from the past have been downers. Well until next time dear reader, I bid you ado.